Wednesday, September 28, 2011


Sometimes the people we love let us down.
Like in a big way.
Sometimes no matter how hard we want to please them, we wind up failing them.
No matter what our intentions are, they are misread... misunderstood.
Sometimes there is nothing we can do to bridge the communication gap. The gap between our heart, our words and our actions.
Our efforts fail us.

Video Update: Everything Happens for a Reason

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My First Live Radio Interview: Join Me! Ask Me Questions!

Hi My Beautiful Readers!

I am excited to share with you that I have my first ever live radio interview coming up this Saturday evening at 7:00 PM Pacific Time.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

A Love Letter to My Babies...

This is my love letter to you…
My beautiful children.
I’ve waited all my life to find your love. I’ve searched in all the wrong places. I’ve sought the approval, love and attention of all the wrong people.
Ones that in the end betray me. Leave me. Seek to destroy me.
But then you came into my life.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Random Conversations with My Trainer....

Just for fun....Random conversations with my Trainer Jerymaine Beasley

Texts to setup our first orientation time:
Him: can you meet Saturday at 4:30?
Me: Sure. Wait, Sat…Oh that’s Oregon football day. 4:30’s after the game, there’s a large possibility I will be slightly, too moderately drunk. Are we gonna workout or just talk about working out? Cuz if we are actually gonna workout, I’m guessing I’m no good to you drunk..?
Him: Work out for about 7 minutes.
Me: 7 minutes are you serious? Damn idk about that. OK I’ll get my shit together. I’ll rally. I can do this.
Him: See you Friday at noon.

My trainer hates me. Not the person I want hating me.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Random Conversation with a Customer Service Rep

Just for fun... Random conversation with the Direct TV phone rep, whom I called yesterday, annoyed and in a hurry trying to cancel my service.

Me: Um yes I’d like to cancel my service, please.
Him: OK can I get your account number?
Me: I don’t have it, can you use something else?
Him: Um OK. Your phone number then?
I give it.

Awesome Things My Kids Say.

In the category "Random Awesomeness" comes some random conversations that I just love with my kidos. Mira and Izzy are identical twin girls and are 4 years old. Kanen is my very mature 8 year old son.

~Kanen while shopping at Costco: Mama can you buy me this Lego set?
Mama: No way! It's $45.00!
Kanen: How do you know that?
Mama: Because it says so on the sign.
Kanen: Oh. Curse you little sign!

Mira talking to her sister while listening to Katie Parry's Last Friday Night in the car: OMG!!  She had MANGOS in her pool!!!! Izzy: I KNOW and she smells like a candy bar!!!"

·        ~Leaving WINCO Foods (grocery shopping)~
Izzy: Mamma I had a dream that we went shopping, and I said ‘mama can I buy something?’ and you said ‘sure darling!’ …. And then I woke up.
Mamma: (laughing) Yep! Sounds about right.
(I never buy my kids’ stuff at the store, unless we go to a store to buy them stuff).

~Mira to me: I love you mama, but you should REALLY shave your legs!

~Mira in the car going to pick up my son: Why is the light GREEN but none of the cars are driving?? Izzy: Cuz their all texting their phones!
~Izzy at the farmers market walking past the live band: 
If I hear this music, it's gonna make me HAVE to dance!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

My Life Long Fantasy.

So in my last post (Your Homework Assignment...Now get on it!) I gave you a task, to lay out in detail the perfect day, 5 years from now. Now what kinda evil person would I be if I asked you to do something, and not require the same of myself? So here's a peek into my crazy little brain, as I share with you a life long dream/fantasy I have had ever since I can remember.  This took me about three minutes to write because, for all of my adult life this exact picture, this exact day, has been what I've fantasized of as my perfect life. 

Your Homework Assignment...Now Get on it!

Ever been asked in an interview where do you see yourself in five years? And if your smart (and I know my readers are) you did your homework and know that employers love asking this question, primarily because it makes them feel smart. 

But can you answer it?
I want you to do this for me.
Answer it. 

Sunday, September 18, 2011

The Grass is NOT Always Greener.

Why do we always want what we cant have? And when it's right in front of our face, when it's ours we turn our back and walk away from it.

Exactly. Thank you.
What kinda twisted logic is that?

In relationships, when your with someone it's often easier to see all the things you don't like about them, than the things you love. All the things they do that annoy you, hurt your feelings, make you want to kick and scream like a 2 year old. It seems so easy to just quit, hop the fence and graze on the green grass across the street.

These days everyone has been conditioned to believe that they don't need, and shouldn't have to change for any body. It's like a bunch of adults roaming the planet sayin' I'm perfect just the way I am, no flaws, nothing to change. If you don't like me exactly how I am then screw you! I'll find someone who does, as they walk out to the desert to die alone.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

The Biggest Challenge of MY Life

I'm about to embark on the biggest challenge of my life, and I'm scared out of my mind.
I met my trainer yesterday.
Need I say more?
Didn't think so.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Your Challenge.

I want to challenge you. I want to push you past your comfort zone. I want you to believe in you. But most of all I want you to KNOW with everything inside you that, if you want it badly enough; and are willing to do the work, that you can change any and all aspects of your life. You can achieve ANYTHING.

Nothing in your life "just happened to you" we are all responsible for the choices that have brought us to this point in our lives. Realizing that, and owning that ,will give you power. Power to change your results moving forward.

Life is a journey, it's a constant classroom. It's up to us to take those lessons and apply them so we can move from 3rd to 4th grade. If we never learn and adapt our strategy than we will remain stagnant with the same results, and never achieve our goals.

Monday, September 12, 2011

P.S. to "Reminder"

This is the perfect example of why I believe so strongly in the Law of Attraction and that how I've been applying it really does work! I needed to find a way to get my car without spending the money to get it towed. I called and explained what happened to the dealership, he said it was probably just a fuse that was out to my ABS break system that disabled the cruise control to come off, and that I would be ok to drive it in today. I did, and he replaced the fuze for free!  We are back in business baby, and I didn't have to pay a tow truck or some expensive repair on my poor car. Thank God! Faith is rewarded. Don't panic even when you really want to.....

Sunday, September 11, 2011


Today was a rough day, it was the kinda day when the old me would really, really enjoy a pity-party. When all I wanted to do was sit down, and say I quit! I'm tired of bustin my ass always to run into brick walls. I'm tired in general. 

On January 1st of this year I had an overwhelming sense that this would be my best year yet. That this would be the year where all my hard work would pay off, it would be the year that changes everything.  I felt it, I verbalized it, and I BELIEVE it (not believed) with all my heart.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Napoleon Hill: Motivation for Life.

I'm just now reading the book "Think and Grow Rich" By Napoleon Hill, and so much of it speaks to me. As you know I'm NOT focused on obtaining "Money" or "Wealth" it's not the reason I go after my dream. However the principles of success are laid out so well and in such a motivational way that they resonate with me on many levels, and I do believe that we create our future and that includes our financial future. He believes in focusing only on the money, I believe it's the experiences that we can draw into our lives regardless of wealth or not, my feeling is that if you focus on your dreams that the rest will come (I believe much of his teachings are in line with this concept as well).

So I thought I would share with you some of my favorite motivational quotes so far. I hope they inspire and motivate you the way they have me.