Law of Attraction, or if you are (as I was) destitute, or in a desperate financial situation, stick to all the tools and tips I have given up to this point. I really feel that for me personally all the information I saw about The Secret or the LOA didn't resonate with me because it focused on money and wealth, and that wasn't anything I could even get my head around. It seemed frivolous and so far removed from any reality I'd ever known that it didn't inspire or motivate me. Instead it made me feel like a bigger failure. But I could dream of living out a specific amazing moment, so that's where I put all my intention. And it worked with amazing results. The first vision board I manifested without spending a dime of my own money for so many fabulous moments, experiences and trips.
But last year I looked at my bank account and said "I'm sick of being broke." I was living "the good life" attracting these amazing experiences but still struggling. I remember the day I decided I was going to affirm "money" for the very first time in my life. I was stuck in Seattle traffic, and I racked my brain for an affirmation that would resonate with me and include increasing financial flexibility and freedom. I couldn't say out loud "I want to be rich." Or "I am going to be wealthy", or "I want to be wealthy." I couldn't even form those words or speak them. I know it sounds crazy, especially living in a society dominated by money, and it was after all, a lifestyle I was already creating, just without the cash. So I disguised my affirmation among several others.
This was my motto:
"I am healthy, I am blessed, I have enough to provide for my family."
I know pretty lame right? But it was the best I could do. That little change brought about my most financially successful year ever. I hit all my goals, accomplished the experiences and physical things I'd intended (and then some), and the change was almost immediate. I was shocked.
But still I struggled with the concept of having money. I've struggled all my life, being raised very poor, it's what I'd known and where my comfort was. It's what drove my hustle. Once that primal hustle was removed I didn't know what to do, and oddly felt a little lost. I was providing for the present, but still unable to get my mind to think long term. Think outside the box of "lack" that I had spent my entire life residing within.
The more I began digging deep inside of me to find the reason why my feelings towards money were so negative, the more I realized it had a great deal to do with how I was raised. Being raised by parents who left middle-class homes to pursue a life of "religious sacrifice" and poverty had instilled in me that money was the "root of all evil" and that poverty showed your closeness to God. Even though as an adult I'd left these religious beliefs far in the past and thought they had no bearing on my life, I was beginning to see how they were the shackles that bound me to a life of struggle.
And then I watched Oprah's Next Chapter last night with Joel Osteen and heard him say something that shook me. He said he believes in a God that desires his people to be prosperous. To live bountiful lives. He made no apologies for living a luxurious life. One he's worked hard for. And that's when I realized that until I could bury this idea that money is the enemy, that I'd never be truly free of the struggle regardless of how much I ever make. That I needed to change my feelings towards it in order to allow abundance and wealth, (still difficult to say that word in relation to me) into my life. I need to accept that I am worthy of having great abundance and that in having it I wont be an evil person. That money is only (as I've always said), paper. That it doesn't hold the power to make you anything. Instead I can control it. I can create it, and attract it, and live an abundant, happy fulfilled life with it, just as I've done without it.
So this is my Law of Attraction 2.0. I now get what all those teachers have been talking about... you can draw abundance and wealth into your life. But I'd never be at this place had I not put in the last four years manifesting experiences that enabled me to believe I deserved it. I think there is always a bigger dream we can dream, and always a new breakthrough we can make, it's the journey. Moving from one level to the next. And to get where I'm planning to go I will need to understand this relationship with money and control it early on, and use it to empower not only myself and my family but the community around me, because it is coming. And when it does, I will finally be ready to receive it.
|I've always loved the line in the song "I Made It" that says "now money's fallin from the sky".|
What is your core belief about money? Has it been a negative or positive force in your life thus far?
~Written by: Sarah Centrella for Thoughts.Stories.Life.
*Yep my spelling and grammar sucks, if this offends you I apologize, but at this point it just is what it is... (know your strengths and recognize your weaknesses MottoForLife)